05 Dec
Oh Bo**ocks!
Need to be with the family this weekend and J__ is away at Whitby! This is a problem together with the serious lack of funding for this time of year (I know, everybody is in the same boat), which means that I have to shelve certain celebrations and concentrate on home and family life for a while.
Can’t blame it on too much drink either (around 10 pints per week now), or overspending … over billing perhaps! Every-bloody one wants wants wants… apart from J__ that is - she is the rock in my life; where there is a problem she jumps in to help when and where she can - she has become a corner-stone and without her life would become dire!
Been asking myself some heavy questions of late concerning life, love, passion and faith. J__ put me straight on everything but life… seems I (like J__ herself) am in a transitional period regarding lifestyle in most aspects. Where it will end for either or both of us I don’t know… really feel I need to talk to someone, especially about the pagan aspect (not that it is fading - it isn’t - gets’ stronger by the day, ’specially this time of year) - more to do with the moot aspect… Arrghh! I know! Not making sense… Oh Bo**ocks!
