It has been sometime since I wrote but here goes.
May was a busy month and saw me and Genie getting married on the 17th - an excellent day with the register office full of guests. Unfortunately I couldn’t invite those I would have wished due to so many family members, so instead they were invited […]
Tuesday had been a very good day dizzy-wise with very little occurring – confidence was running normal for once. Didn’t bother with drink in the afternoon, instead carried on with the shelving of the bathroom and a consequential squirt with some silicone sealant.
Nighttime saw darts again at the pub; the cider was going down very […]
Today has been good, the days leading upto today have been getting better and better as well… dizziness permitting of course. I have been plagued over the last fortnight with dizzy spells that have been leaving me absolutely unable to do anything constructive, other than writing on the pc (when I can hold my vision […]
Continuing from Thursday, 14th June…
Friday, K___ never turned up, recieved various calls from various agencies about my mental state which still isn’t good. Friday saw the onset of suicidal tendancies - spent large amounts of time scouring the house for sufficient amounts of tablets (any kind) to end this state of ‘What’s the f*ckin’ point […]
Having awoken from a terrible night full of head troubles only to find that my state of darkness is set to continue. Phoned the authorities last night but got accused of being drunk when I wasn’t. Tried phoning for help in the night but there was no one there - only bloody machines. Texted K___ […]
Well ok, I’ve been somewhat living up to my name by not writing, or almost not writing, to anywhere within the last month or so, but there are changes afoot once again.
My thoughts are much more stable, well more than they have been, so initiating yet more seems appropriate given the present conditions. These are […]
Every so often something happens that has the potential to change your life forever, whatever it is be it a new partner of some kind or a decent job offer. Something has occured and this time I intend to take it with both hands and already I am changing my lifestyle, even though it is […]
Just done the accounts and cames to startling reality! Really bo*locked myself this week/half month moneywise! Went a bit overdrawn possibly due to the heavy drinking session last week (averaged £45 per day), then hit with a number of utility bills. No doubt the ‘ole bank’ll hit me with yet more charges as well - […]
Something I have disagreed with on personal levels for many a year, but now had raised it’s ugly head, or so for some have answered by my predicament.
This is something I suffered with for a long time - 10-15 years, something which I thought I had dispersed with until:
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Have been spending time with myself and […]
Been spending some time on the home front for a while and come to to some conclusions, some of which have been good and light-hearted, some have been somewhat deeper.
Drinking times - mixing between the York & the Smugglers, then the Morecambe reopened. Has been some time for anyone has set forth in the latter […]
